Can you please yze my mental state of mind?

ok...u sound pretty messed up..no offense..but its the truth...we must all face r truths wether they be good or bad. anyway. try thinking about good things about urself. u can be wutev & whoev u wanna be!^__^ its ur choice. if u wanna hate everything u can. but if u wanna luv everything u can. its ur choice.my advice(take it from sum1 whos knows about wut ur goin thru..me) stop thinking about only the bad things about ur life & urself. or else it will tear u apart inside(ive been there & dun that) its ok to think about wut ur feelings, good or bad. think about ur feelings & wut u want to feel,think, & live ur life. its ok to realize ur good quality's. find them. like if ur kind or loving,caring or sincere. & even think about wut bad feelings or traits u hav. & make up in heart that u WILL be betr & not hate or be bitter or angry.just try to be betr. u wont make it on ur 1st try prob. but if u keep trying u will make it!^__^ its ALWAYS ur choice. its ok to realize the good things about urself. its not being arrogant,boastful or stukup. just dont think that ur betr than every1 else. but realize that love,kindness & all of those feelings...R betr than hate & all that. look inside urself & find out wut feelings u do & dont hav, the feelings that u want & want to feel. & forge inside of urself those feelings. & think to urself. is wut im feeling right or wrong. if its right..then hold ontu those feelings. but if its rong...then let those feelings go & hold on tight to ur inner light & love. dont let the darkness of this world & in urself consume u. its a lie. a illusion. never let it take hold of u. u fin ur innder light & hold it high. for people & urself to see. light..always shatter's the darkness. its as easy as that really. i did it. & i know wut its lik to be alone...lik u...to know & feel..lik...even tho ur family is sitting right next to u..they arent there...not for u....the real u.....they cant even see the pain that ur feeling & u just use a fake smile to cover it all up to them....cuz u dont trust them...u feel hurt, angry. alone.& most importent of all.....forgive those who hurt u.l.even now....not for them. but for u. forgive them. make up in ur heart that instead of hating,beaing angry or mad at them..that u'll love them. i still feel that in a way. lol but talk to ur family. tell them wut ur feeling. cry. get upset. its ok. u can tell them wut u want. stop thinking about so many things at once. just calm down & slowly think about politics & stuf. its ok to take ur time. theres no rush. dont push urself so hard. its ok to take a break. stop trying to be other people. just be urself!^__^ be a good person. u know wut a good person is & u can be 1 if u want 2. also. pray to Jesus to help u. even if u dont believe. just pray to him. he will help u. live for today. dont try to live for the next day or next week. its ok to plan. but LIVE for the current day. dont think about all the bad things. think about posiive things. think about all of ur blessings & realize how u really cud hav it worse. it can always get worse..not mata wut..lol...anyway i hop ethis helped u!^_^